A good day to let it out.

If wanting to make sure everything is ok, wanting to find out what was really going on, is considered stalking…his head is messed up and shows how full of hatred and bitterness their lives are. If wanting to honor the life of someone who I had a relationship with after they committed suicide is in their eye not allowed… their heads are messed up and they have psychological issues with nice people. If he believes that by saying only certain members of the family are forever…their head is messed up and they need to go back and learn about eternal families; no one gets to pick and choose. If they attack others, make fun of them, withhold forgiveness and then hide behind the being the “victim” … their head is messed up and they need to reread President Uchtdorf’s talk and apply it in their life. If all one can do is be negative and bitter while hiding behind their façade of “we are better and happier” trying to turn uplifting lives and positivity into a competition…their head is messed up and karma is a real thing. Interesting that these toxically sick people only see contact equalling conflict, only a deranged person would see the world in that way. A toxically chauvinistic sick person who does not have a normal view of the world could never understand how a woman could choose to hold on marriage and focus on a career and still have happy healthy relationships. In my family (unlike toxic families) I was taught to listen to a person, and listen to my cousin we did. We listened to the stories she told, we listened to the frustration she felt, we listened to the claims being banished, of abandonment and of being excluded from family events of other family members holding grudges and not speaking for months on end, we listened to what she had to say, we talked we laughed, we visited. I also listened when my cousin and uncle stated that I am an outsider and not part of the family... which coincides with what I had been told of how these toxic family members treated her. Toxic people also shun and that is what I saw happening. Non-toxic people do not exclude anyone from coming to a funeral, they welcome all who want to go, they let everyone mourn, not just who they "deem" in their delusional minds who should be there. In difficult times they come together, they reach out, they let bygones be bygones, but toxically sick people, exclude and try to bully and skew good service as being evil. They show a false face to the world, they show no mercy and bulldoze over others and then expect to receive kindness where they have only sowed hate. They believe everything is about them, and they will take true things and exaggerate them to the point of laughable outrageousness. They spread lies and hatred as if it were water. They hide behind false masks and mock good, they take good and say it is evil and take evil claiming it is good. The problem for toxically sick people is, we know they are jealous, we know and have seen how they envy others, we know that God knows the truth. A God they claim to believe in as well. I was once charged with "using the Jesus" card and unauthentic for keeping a positive attitude during trying times, and I will say what I have always said, I will take the Jesus card any day, there is no other card to use. It is possible to maintain a positive mindset even if we don't feel positive at the time and are going through a trying time. Toxic people because they do not understand how to be anything but fake cannot understand what "real" is, they misinterpret real happiness and real positivity for "unauthentic" or being fake. When one lives a life that they truly enjoy, happiness and positivity come naturally even during difficult times. The problem with toxic mentally ill people, they make fun of others, try to bring them down or outdo them; that is when their instability shows the greatest especially when they cannot be happy for someone who is genuinely happy and who has a healthy outlook on life even when going through tough times. Instead, they judge, criticize and make ignorant comments. It's pretty sad the delusions these toxic family members live under. But until they change their ways, soften their hearts, let go of the toxicity that has taken root in their lives they will continue to be miserable delusional toxic souls.