A good day to be grateful for good friends

From the last time I have written many things have happened, I created a new blog to help me overcome my grief, disappointment and to let go of things that others have done. Through the last few years some sad/disappointing things and some things so amazing, it is almost impossible to describe with words, have happened. I am so thankful for my Mum, Grandma, Sister, Brother and Sister-in-law, a few extended family and many many friends whom I consider family. In 2016 I lost my cousin (Jessica) Jetta Rose Mickelsen to Suicide. The part that is so unfortunate is that she felt she had nowhere to turn when in fact she did. She was secretly (unbeknownst to her family) seeing my Grandmother, Mum, Sister and I on occasion and let her Children see our Grandma. Her family's hatred and Jealousy of my Grandma and Mum made relations difficult for Jetta...Jetta was in a rock and a hard spot with the belief that she had nowhere to turn. At the Funeral, one would believe that people could be civil but unfortunately, it only lead to Jetta's family creating a scene and ultimately cutting off any hopes of reconciliation and mending family ties. I have never in my life seen such blind anger, jealous hatred and unforgiving people. And in the end, they decided to end their relations with the rest of the family. Last year I went to a Lady Antebellum concert in memory of Jetta. I also lost another cousin though not to death but to her choice to also cut out her family. Shelby went from a beautiful woman to some married girl I don't even know. Unfortunate because of the lies that have been told about my family Her and possibly her sisters and a few other cousins who could see reason have been poisoned to believe that my family would judge them for their choices, when in fact we would be grateful for contact and knowing they are doing ok and kids if they have any are growing up ok I know my Grandma would love to meet some of her great-grandchildren that have unfairly been withheld from her. Our humor and beliefs may not be the same but we still love them, pray for them and hope the best for them. I do not know if Tami, Brittney or Bethany would ever read this blog but it is my hope that one day they Reach out to Grandma Lenore and say hi to her. I am not sure that relations between us could ever be repaired and I would be a bit nervous due to the nature of destruction certain family members wish of mine. But God is good and makes up for the sadness and disappointments we feel and in my case am surrounded by many good friends. They have rallied around my family, have offered support and have helped us not just trudge forward, but go forward in faith and find joy in our trials. To live life to the fullest and to know that in the end, love always wins.